I been tryna find a place where happiness lasts
This shit done happened so fast, I can’t keep up with the raps
They say ya home where you’ll never be sad
But I barely go to see my mom and hardly speak to my dad
‘Cause after the eviction I’ve really been feeling different
Alcohol at home behind me and addiction in my vision
I’m listenin to Mobb and Illmatic it is my medicine
Music become my sedative when life become repetitive
Elevated and celebrated but not my melanin
But middle class cat and frat rap, I never been
Grassroots hip hop culture comin out of me
I been around the block and college avenue can vouch for me
But at the moment I’ve slowly grown to be broken
Rap allow the words without the courage to be spoken
All I wanna do is be honest and feel better
Window pane (pain) arrange claim to the wether
Fuck a hater, a gang, I ain’t afraid of whoever
I ain’t bout to be a bitch but know I can’t deliver
I can do something with music and use it as therapy
Reach out to the people who have never been aware of me
I can see my path as I walk but homie just barely
And if I’ll never be happy then this shit it just ain’t fair to me
I hope the people I love can see my vision
But honestly it’s alright if they don’t I know I’m different
I know I’m a weirdo. slapped in the head
I’ve never liked doing drugs, so never had many friends
Cause nowadays a friend is just a narcotic supplier
Only thing these kids are worried bout is getting higher
Take away the Xan pills and shit out the equation
Do you still got real friends or is that to many changes?
I’m only saying this cause I been getting bored
No one wants get to know you and people don’t wanna talk no more
But that’s alright cause I got Logic Pro 1
And a microphone that listens, it might be my only friend
So I sit alone at night in my room and truly ponder
The meaning of my life and now my mind begins to wander
What am I doing if I’m not making a change?
Where am I going if I’m not going insane?
Where can I be free if I always rock a chain?
And where can I be happy when I’m feeling this pain?
Lucid dreams, lucid dreams, please come tonight
Maybe in a fantasy world I can do something right
Lay my head, man I know should sleep
I been feelin weak all week. I need some peace
I’ll just go to sleep. And have a good dream
And never wake. sometimes I think that’s how it should be
So if I die before this song gets released.
Just know that I was a dreamer and needed peace
So if I die tonight.
If I die tonight.
Will you remember me?
Will you be alright?
If I die tonight.
If I die tonight.
If I die before this song gets released.
Just know that I was a dreamer and needed peace
Hold on. At the moment I feel alone
But I know that I’ll be fine.
If I find time to free my mind
Visualizin' the realism of life in actuality Fuck who’s the baddest,
a person’s status depends on salary And my mentality is money-orientated
I’m destined to live the dream for all my peeps who never made it
‘Cause yeah, we were beginners in the hood as Five Percenters But somethin'
must’ve got in us, ‘cause all of us turned to sinners
Now some restin' in peace and some are sittin' in San Quentin
Others, such as myself, are tryin' to carry on tradition
Hold on. At the moment I feel alone
But I know that I’ll be fine.
If I find time to free my mind