Lyrics
Alive, I felt I was alive,
The room shook under his nervous steps
I wished to not open my eyes, anymore.
In my house everything was unfamiliar,
Wasn’t him, wasn’t his fury on my bones,
I was wrong; I could make amend the problem that I had created.
And I still hung, with my nails and all my memories,
I was less than the idea he had about me,
While I kept telling myself «I just have to wait for it to pass».
The hell was mine but I needed to
Believe, since I still breathed,
I could never be more blessed than this, oh no…
In my house everything was unfamiliar,
Wasn’t him, wasn’t his fury on my bones,
I was wrong, I could make amend the problem that I had created.
When words hurt more than a whole night with him,
My son shadow turns me back to forgive,
With a fast rewind, I forgot any wounds on my raped mind.
And your dreams, who knows where are now…
And my dreams had fallen down to resist.
In my house everything was unfamiliar,
He was, and was his fury on my bones,
I knew I couldn’t make amend the problem that I didn’t create.
The main effort, to admit that I had really failed,
That I’d known the most degrading misery,
To discover that I could deserve more than a daily dread.